I think that we have come to think of happiness as a state, this permanent feeling. Either you're or happy you're not. People assume that if you're happy than everything is alright.

I've been learning, that happiness isn't a state, happiness is found in the fleeting moments. Happiness is an experience, and it should be taken as one. We should savor in the moments where we find it, but recognize that continually seeking it out lessens the impact.

I realized that trying to be "happy" is so much harder than just enjoying the little moments. It causes anxiety and stress. Attempting to put up this front about your feelings isn't making you happy, nor is it convincing anyone. Be real. Enjoy what comes your way, and rather than worrying about when you'll have it again, take full advantage. SOAK IT UP! I'm so fortunate to have people in my life that allow me to do this. As much of a growing experience as 2009 has been, there are no other people I would rather be doing it with. If you're my friend. THANK YOU. Know that you are changing me, changing me into someone I really want to be.

Lately I have been more scared and uncertain about life than ever, but somehow that's at the back of my mind. I've been getting caught up in the moments. and it's working. Savoring the moments is providing me with happiness. I may not have life figured out, and I may be sad some of the time, but those moments are all I need to get by. The constant reminder that people are good, and life s meant to be enjoyed.